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SET
FREES
THE
HIDDEN TRUTH
JUST
MY LIFE
HOW
I BECAME ME
JUST
ONE OF THOSE DAYS
DAYS
PAST AND GONE
DEAD
SOULS
FROM
START TO FINISH
PETTY
CRIME
RUNNING
OUT OF TIME
IT
HITS THE FAN
RED
HEAD ADDICTION
MY
OWN PRISON
TOO
TIRED
LONELINESS
CAN BE A BORE
FEEL
THE BLUES
FUN
ON THE RUN
TODAY
11/2/98
WELCOME
TO THE WORLD OF THE VAMPIRES
SET FREE
So
many faces
To put on
There's no trace
I guess I'm gone
One
minute I'm happy
The next, I'm sad
Then I feel lonely
Then I think of what we had
All
of my feelings
Are bottled up inside
And all of my feelings
Have nowhere left to hide
So
now I'll set them free
So I'll just let them go
I'll release them in my poetry
So now everyone will know
So
now I'll go on with my life
And now, I'm finally happy
So I jump back into life
And as I fall, I know I'm free.
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THE HIDDEN TRUTH
There's
a hidden part of me
A part which no one ever sees
For I've hidden it deep within me
People only see the good side
For that's all I show them
Oh, they would be surprised
If they ever find out the truth
About who I am deep inside
If they only knew
What I feel and think
Or what I wanted to do
But then they wouldn't except me
If they only knew the truth
So, I'll just show them one side
And keep the truth to myself ,
As for the other side
I feel that I'll have to hide
At least for now.
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JUST MY LIFE
Some
days are better than others
Lately, I'm on a high
And I don't want to come down
I feel like I'm up in the sky
These
are the happiest days
Of my life, so far
I feel that I can fly
And touch the stars
But
eventually this feeling will fade
Then, I'll hit the floor
And all of the people in my life
I'll just ignore
As
I shut the rest of the world out
I'll begin to feel alone
While deep down inside
I'll become so cold.
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HOW I BECAME ME
All
I want
Is my memories not to haunt
I just want to go on with my life
And do whatever I like
But
I can't run from my past
It all happened so fast
I try to face it everyday
In every possible way
I
try and pray
For the pain to go away
But I live with it everyday
And I can't seem to get away
What
I've been through
Is nothing new
It lives with me day after day
And it makes me who I am today.
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JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS
I
feel that I'm dying inside
There's nowhere left to hide
My heart is turning cold
I feel that I'm growing old
None
of my friends are around
To pick me up off the ground
Everyone else has gone away
Leaving me to go astray
With
their backs toward me
It makes me feel so lonely
So, while I wait to die
All I can do is cry.
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DAYS PAST AND GONE
Take
your sword
Keep your word
Fight with all your might
To prove you're right
Heads
are flying
Women are crying
You taste them like grapes
As their bodies you rape
Blood
is every where
It's even in your hair
You take all they got
And leave their bodies to rot
You
say you're on a crusade
As you carry your blade
You take their lives
And rape their wives
Those
days didn't last
They are in the past
And forever gone
As the survivors go on.
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DEAD SOULS
No
heart or soul
Just an empty hole
A collection of bones
Separate and all alone
They
did the crime
Forever is their time
As burning flames
No one knowing their names
They
chose their fate
Now it's too late
Lost for all eternity
For that what must be.
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FROM START TO FINISH
guy
1: A friend introduce me to you
At a time when I was blue
Lonely was I
I made myself try
girl:
He was someone from a relationship from the past
That just didn't last
He introduced me to you
Cause I wanted someone new
guy 2: I wanted her off my back
So I gave her some slack
And introduced to a friend I knew well
I didn't mean to put him in Hell
guy
1: We hit it off from the start
She fell into my heart
Those four days where a blast
They happened so fast
girl: We all lost touch with each other
I found me another
He was a sweet guy
Now that's one of many lies
guy 1: Time went by fast
I kept thinking of the past
So my friend and I went by
Just to see her and say hi
guy 1: Only to find that she needed a friend
To help her soul mend
I was really doing fine
I just missed these two friends of mine
girl: That night one of them stayed
I ask him to come back the next day
guy
1: I began to love her
I wanted to be with her
Even though I stayed around
She wanted my friend to pick her up, off the ground
guy
2: She got me to propose to her
I decided to settle for her
I thought I stilled loved her
Eventually I left her
guy 1: This was great news to me
For any one can see
That I wanted to be in her heart
I even lived with her from the second start
Three months went by
All I did was try
To be in her heart
Which I wasn't in from the start
girl:
I wanted him to be a live in friend
Until the very end
For I wanted to be with another
Any other
guy
1: I told her that I love her
I wanted to marry her
She wanted me around all the time
She never said I love you, that's the crime
She told me I was out of season
I asked her why she wanted me around, her answer, I've
got my reasons
girl:
I chased him away
I fought him one day
I told him to go away
I'll see you another day
guy
1: This went on a while
Longer than the Nile
One day I didn't go back
And my heart turned black
girl: Now I hate him
I blame him
I want him to die
And that's no lie.
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PETTY CRIME
His
name is Bob
He just lost his job
Can't you see
He's supporting his family
He
is kept being told
That he to old
No one wants him
The future looks grim
He
loads his gun
Takes one last look at his son
He walks out the door
His family sees him no more
His
mind goes blank
He walks into the bank
Gun shots ring out
People begin to shout
His
last thoughts were of his son and wife
This was the end of his life
He laying down in the mud
In a pool of blood.
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RUNNING OUT OF TIME
He's
running late
He's late for a date
A date he won't make
His car was found in a lake
The
roads were covered by rain
He slid out of his lane
He took life as a game
That's what makes him the blame
He
had to go fast
Those cars he had to pass
His car slid
As it began to skid
His
car was red
Now he's dead
For having a blast
For driving fast.
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IT HITS THE FAN
Wind
blows
No one knows
In the start
What is the heart
Alone
Throws some bones
Where ever he roams
Is his home
Time lost
That's the cost
Growing old
Turning cold
In need
Left to bleed
Unable to read
Plant the seeds
Lost
mind
Unable to find
Any one kind
I'm left behind
Time
to cry
Maybe try
Or lie
Why not die
Had
enough
Not that tough
Time to give up
It's to rough.
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RED HEAD ADDICTION
Something
about those red heads
Something that's wild
Those red heads
Are any thing but mild
A
little crazy
This is true
But you must be
The lovable you
A
red head crush
Red heads I prefer
A brain rush
As I look at her
She's
calm down
But she is still free
To go all over town
Instead she's with me
Wild
and free
Are these red heads
A little bit crazy
But they are alive, not dead
She
is free
To be with me
Or any one else
But she's with no one else.
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MY OWN PRISON
Locked up in my home
Kept in my dome
In a box
I play with blocks
Losing
my mind
It's hard to find
What I feel
What is real
Lost
in this illusion
Filled with tension
Lost on this plane
Made of pain
Insane
Covered in rain
On a sunny day
Hit by the sun's rays
Hit
by a light
That is very bright
Yet stuck in the dark
The dogs bark
The
birds sing
A familiar ring
Cats purr
At the touch of their fur
It
all goes black
It hits like a heart attack
Not I can't see
What it's like to be free
I'm
on my own
Stripped to the bone
They took it all
And served it raw
The
rivers of blood
Begin to flood
And turns the mud
Into crud
Just
perfect
Me they reject
No one protects
Me from being a reject
I
am
Forever damned
Let's dance
Give me a chance
I'm
not that fake
Don't cause me to break
My soul you take
In drowning in the lake
Now
I drown
As I go to town
I can't be found
I'm under the ground
Just
leave me be
I can never be free
Don't even try
Just let me die.
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TOO TIRED
Too
tired to care
About how life is unfair
I work to hard
I'm just a wild card
Gone
are my dreams
Like dried up streams
Dead inside
Not a fun ride
I
can't try
I just cry
To myself I lie
As I slowly die
I
feel to weak
I can't speak
I'm still in pain
My body I strain
All
that's true
Is that I did this for you
I feel so low
Left in this hole
Good
night
I can't fight
I lost my sight
I can't see the light.
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LONELINESS CAN BE A BORE
Sitting
here with nothing better to do
Just thinking of finding someone new
Though she might be hard to find
I've got plenty of time
Sitting
here, all by myself
Just me here, all by myself
Which is fine by me
Which anyone can see
But
soon that will end
And I'll finally be with my friends
And the loneliness will be no more
Which is good, cause I was getting bored
So
once again
I'll be with my friends
And then I'll be
Very happy.
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FEEL THE BLUES
I feel the blues
They got a noose
For my neck
Oh what the heck
They
got their guns
I'm on the run
Trying to hide
Deep down inside
Now
I feel the blues
I must now choose
Which way to go
High or low
Well
they found me
And I am guilty
The bell rang
From my neck I hang
Well
I shouldn't of killed a man
Well at least I got a tan
But now I'm dead
My name was Ted.
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FUN ON THE RUN
I'm
hiding out
I'm on the run
But that's not what this poems about
As I hold this gun
I'm
just having some fun
Cause I know I'm going to die young
That's why I'm on the run
And your cancer is eating my lung
It's
hard to breath
Too much pain now
This air I can't breath
I guess I'm going to die now
You
look at me like I'm some kind of freak
When I'm in the corner stoned out of my mind
These words are hard to speak
Cause they're to hard to find
I'm
alone in this world
Turning very cold
In my world
Just growing old
Now
it's time for me to die
This is what must be
Don't you dear cry
Cause you won't miss me.
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TODAY 11/2/98
I
woke up alone like I always do
This pain inside never quits
My body's is dying from the inside out
I feel so weak
I feel so cold
This world is getting old for me
I don't want to go outside
I don't want to feel anything
Lose a piece of my mind
Get lost into time
I'm in this valley of the dead
I lost so much of my blood
Leave me in my tub
Dream this life away
I'm lost for today and tomorrow
You can't find me here
Lost in this empty space
In an empty room
In this desert of time
Nothing matters now
Nothing will ever matter
Only the past exist for me
I'm in this palace of pain
Stuck some where in my past
I can't wake up from this nightmare
All the people I hurt and all those who hurt
Rip this heart from me
Take my mind from me
A living shell with no sou
Just memories of pain
Just fading away
Now I'm gone today.
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WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF THE
VAMPIRES
Twentyfour hours of night
There is no sun light
For the sun doesn't exist
Still humans resist
The
humans are preyed upon
A war goes on
Hope has gone away
For the vampires rule today
In
a world that is forever night
A world beyond the sun's light
Humans, the vampires own
For the vampires rule the throne
Humans
are kept around to feast on
To make sure the vampire race goes on
This is the dark empire
On the world of the vampire.
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